From the recording Meet Me in Gate City
Lyrics
What's a young man to do? Live stable or go for gold?
Survived my own stupidity too much to not get old
I was hoaxing phony devils when I said my soul was sold
They couldn't even touch it beating freezing more than cold
My brain just works in odd capacities
My pain feels like it sits and laughs at me
Can't even take a shower without it being a bath for 3
Myself, my brain, anxiety, can't soap out catastrophe
Search out something actually, deeper than a scratch can reach
Somewhere where the passion reeks, and not just faking fashion geeks
Hatching like Tapestry, In Fact I'm intact this week
Soul bleak and black as can be but in fact I don't lack the peace
One day I report to work One day I work for myself
One day I'm thinking about college, One day I'm thinking about hell
Thinking what the fuck's real? What am I doing still living?
Stomach knots cause I lost out coulda gave lots now none for giving
And for that I forever feel unforgiven
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Hook:
If this was goodbye, I have no regrets
Except for lies and times I didn't try my best
Forget the rest, had good times with good people
Never give thought to evil, need peace upon retrieval
x2
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They still thinkin I give a fuck, too poor for too many blessings
Only way I eat the salad's when it's drowning in the dressing
Some days I wake up and don't feel I should get dressed
But if I don't do somethin bout it I'm bound to still be stressed
Yes, I go back and forth, with how I should handle life
Sometimes I cook but got other reasons to handle knifes
I mean knives, like changed lives, better results than bribes
No time to hide guy, I'm just living the ride
They say life like a roller coaster, mines mixed with a roaster
No not a testarossa, I mean like a heated stove bruh
Pressure's On, like Red C inside of a pressure cooker
I'm a hunter like Yondu, you an actor like Michael Rooker
I was skippin class, smokin grass, could of been a cliche'
Surprised I wasn't scared to rap and could of been a DJ
With my girl givin love and life being a bitch, this could of been a 3 way
But she still fightin that bitch with me so she earning her queens place
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Hook:
If this was goodbye, I have no regrets
Except for lies and times I didn't try my best
Forget the rest, had good times with good people
Never give thought to evil, need peace upon retrieval
x2
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There were times I was out drinkin, smokin, and doin other shit
Luckily the shit stuck with me, write memories of the mothership
Some that I told my brother quick, Some that would make my mother sick
Some that might make you cringe a bit,
Some that might make you sing a lick
Some sing and Some watch as the World Spins
That's why I don't need any flowers when my World ends
Please take this away, this feeling of constant war
The pain inside my head and whatever makin my back sore